Worry is a darkroom where negatives develop!
I'm so glad we will be studying Matthew 6 in BSF this week! How timely that I will read Scripture and hear a lecture on worry when that is just what is plaguing me now! I am overcome with worry/fear/anxiety these days. I wrote this to help myself overcome the temptation to worry, however I am posting it here to hopefully bless another.
First, I am not feeling close to God. When this happens in our lives it's us, God never abandons us. I have unconfessed, unrepentant sin. I asked God to forgive me for having a spirit of bitterness lately and of worry. I have not seen His unending blessings and instead have allowed doubts and fears to creep in. Worry is not believing God's promises, so I must bring it to God. Confess my sin of worry and turn my troubles over to Him.
Paul tells us to take all our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ (2 Cor 10:5). He knows my every thought, there are no secrets from God. So I cannot hide from Him my worry that He may not provide, or that I don't want His plans for my life, I want my own. I don't always understand the reason things are happening the way they do (as His ways are higher than my understanding). In these moments I doubt Him.
I can grow complacent - not being in His word or in quiet prayer time with Him. I don't know if I want to hear what He has to say. All things, even bad things, can be used to His glory. That's what I'm afraid of! So I confess this to the Lord and seek His forgiveness and ask that the Holy Spirit give me the strength to toss these thoughts out.
I picture myself writing each worry on an index card and then crinkling it up, tossing it at that guy in the Office Jerk game (an app on my phone that my son loves), then throwing the dynamite at him and the thoughts- BOOM! They're gone!
Scroll down for the scripture verses I found helpful in arming myself against the temptation to worry. If you're interested, these are the anxieties that consume me today:
As I've shared before, there is always the fear that something would happen to my children. Most specifically I worry about my 8 month old baby. I think knowing safety hazards and dangers are good but I know TOO much, having me in constant fear that my son with die unexpectedly.
"For I am the Lord your God, who takes hold of your right hand, and says to you Do not fear; I will help you. Do not be afraid, ...Do not fear, for I myself will help you. declares the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel." - Isaiah 41:13-14
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:34
"Cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:7
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you & help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid." - John 14:27
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call on Me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,' declares the Lord." - Jeremiah 29:11-14a
"I tell you not to worry about your life. Don't worry about having something to ear, drink, or wear. Isn't life more than food or clothing?" - Matthew 6:25
"Only people who don't know God are always worrying about such things. Your Father in heaven knows that you need all these things. But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what He wants. The other things will be yours as well." - Matthew 6:32-33
God knows the needs of our hearts before we even ask! When I lay all my worries at His feet I reveal my faith in His plans to provide and to comfort. I know whatever He has in store for us is all for His glory and our benefit. I can surrender to Him EVERYTHING, because it all belongs to Him. My children, my time, my money, they are His.
So I am working on asking God to reveal Himself to me and to open my eyes to His plans for me so that I can wholly obey. Here are the blessings I've seen in just the past few days (I am also praying He helps me to see ALL my blessings - AND be a blessing to others!):
A sweet friend that I have not seen in years knew of my need for a winter coat for Dean from a post I made on Facebook. She ordered him one online and is having it shipped to us.
Another friend, who also has some financial struggles herself, dropped by some hand-me-down clothes for Dean.
My mom bought Dean some new pants knowing he has outgrown his from last winter.
I received a very, very encouraging card regarding my ministry from my Bible Study gals - and a gift card!
The cashier at the grocery store today was able to accept an expired store coupon for $5 off my purchase.
Another friend (gee, I am seeing that I am blessed with friends!!) had a bunch of frozen meat she didn't really have room for and couldn't eat very quickly on her own and gave it to me (as I have made many meals for her in the past).
I sold several of my bags from my business, enabling us to buy gas last week.
I was able to get an in-person appointment with the County to attempt to apply for state aid and PCA services for the kids.
I try not to speed but can be absent-minded at times. Today I was compelled to look at the spedometer and saw I was going a few over. I slowed down a bit and just a couple blocks later saw a police car - waiting.
The book I really wanted to use for Science in school was at the library - with no other holds and no wait time to check out!
My girlfriend, who is a single mom herself, bought baby Bruce a couple warmer outfits as the weather is getting cooler but he does not yet fit Dean's old winter stuff.
Thank you, Lord, for your undeserved blessings!