Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Our Special Needs Journey:Part 16 - Poop Happens!

I was joking the other day that if our family had a reality show it could totally be called "Poop Happens." Why is there so much poop going on in this house?! I know plenty of people with kiddos closer together in age than mine - still in diapers. Our pets are (mostly) potty trained. Yet the volume of poop we clean up here is crazy! The amount of crap that happens in our lives is a bit crazy as well!

I'm attempting to pack like a madwoman - I have less than 5 weeks left to sort through, pack up, toss out, or donate 13 years of things (we brought everything from our apartment here when we moved and have only done mini-purges over the years, leaving much left to do).

--- BRUCE ---

Sunday I heard a heart-stopping shrieking from my 15-month old. My poor baby had opened the oven and grabbed the grill with his hand. The ear piercing cries broke every piece of my heart. Dan had turned the oven on about a minute prior. Dad and Big Sister were in the kitchen with Mom nearby at the table and he still managed to get into the oven! How does that happen?! Over a week later and I am still in tears thinking about it - my Mommy Guilt-ometer is off the charts.

Breaks my heart!

He cried for HOURS - and so did I. It was a 2nd degree burn and the nurses said he was a very lucky boy. If the oven had been on any longer/hotter it would've cause nerve damage. It terrifies me because I cannot seem to keep up with this guy these days! He is wicked fast, sneaky, and curious (in other words, he is a toddler) and my attention is pretty divided these days.

 All wrapped up and sleeping - how sweet is this boy?!

Friday, May 16, 2014

Our Foreclosure Journey Part 5: Moving Mountains

[This is a photo of a tree in the front yard of our new home. This is scripture that came to me in quiet time today - how appropriate!]

What a busy week this has been! There has been an abundance of good news (for a change). Why am I surprised that God provides and that prayer is powerful?! I know it, yet I can doubt.

I really needed good news as I have been feeling a bit discouraged as of late. Tuesday was my first special ed class with Bruce and the audiologist was there.  We had been told by the Genetics clinic to test his hearing for multiple reasons.  His right ear is fine but his left is not.  At first the device would not register, then he failed 3 times, meaning he is full or partially deaf in his left ear.

This makes tons of sense, considering his refusal to nurse on the left breast, his lack of speech sounds, his drunk old man uncoordinated walk, and how easily he is frustrated. The Audiologist checked the device against her ears and mine to be sure it was operating correctly.  Then she said perhaps he has extreme wax build up blocking his canal.  So it is possible everything with his hearing is fine, but I need to see yet another specialist, as if I don't have enough appointments to go to.

So I'm ready for GOOD news since I feel a bit weighted down by burdens these days. I trust in God's purposes in all things, yet I've certainly been feeling discouraged, To feel anything but numb would be the equivalent of moving a mountain.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Mother's Day Musings: Empty Arms

     [Photo credit CarlyMarie Photography]

To those with empty arms this Mother's Day: I'm thinking of you. I'm praying that God will wrap His arms of comfort around you and that you would feel His presence. You are not forgotten. On this day that serves as a reminder of what you DON'T have, let me assure you you are not alone. You are loved.

I was a child myself when I had my first child - I went straight from my parents house to my husband's (well, to his parents' house for that first few months). I confess I cannot relate to the devastation of not being a mother when you long for it so deeply.  I have been a mother far longer than I have known the value of it.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Our Special Needs Journey:Part 15 - Homecoming: Hospital Discharge & Other Updates

This post is overdue, as usual. Getting in a few moments to sit with my computer is a challenge these days, priority-wise. Bruce won't let me finish cleaning or folding laundry but he's okay with me typing provided there is a boob in his mouth at all times. :) (Love this kid)

If you've been following our family's story, you'd already know that my oldest daughter, Julia, has been in the hospital to treat her eating disorder and failure to thrive. We really missed having her at home - she's total sunshine and such a cheerful helper. (Although it is oddly quiet when my girls are not together - they are always screaming and fighting or screaming and playing.)

Everyone was excited to have her come home Friday afternoon!  After almost 2 weeks indoors in Intensive Stay Living Inpatient Care when we walked out to the car she was surprised to find the grass was green! Yes, it was May 2nd, but in Minnesota that is no guarantee that Spring has come and Summer is around the corner.  So when the sun finally emerged for the first time in weeks Julia was totally convinced it had come out just for her.

BTW - to those amazing friends & family that came to visit Julia at the hospital, made a meal, or helped with childcare - I can't thank you enough! 

[Bruce and I went to Julia's appointments that morning then brought her home. He so very much missed his sister and would not let her go - not even to come to his mama! In other news, this baby is now 15 months and in desperate need of a haircut!]