What a busy week this has been! There has been an abundance of good news (for a change). Why am I surprised that God provides and that prayer is powerful?! I know it, yet I can doubt.
I really needed good news as I have been feeling a bit discouraged as of late. Tuesday was my first special ed class with Bruce and the audiologist was there. We had been told by the Genetics clinic to test his hearing for multiple reasons. His right ear is fine but his left is not. At first the device would not register, then he failed 3 times, meaning he is full or partially deaf in his left ear.
This makes tons of sense, considering his refusal to nurse on the left breast, his lack of speech sounds, his drunk old man uncoordinated walk, and how easily he is frustrated. The Audiologist checked the device against her ears and mine to be sure it was operating correctly. Then she said perhaps he has extreme wax build up blocking his canal. So it is possible everything with his hearing is fine, but I need to see yet another specialist, as if I don't have enough appointments to go to.
So I'm ready for GOOD news since I feel a bit weighted down by burdens these days. I trust in God's purposes in all things, yet I've certainly been feeling discouraged, To feel anything but numb would be the equivalent of moving a mountain.
We haven't been looking too seriously for a rental home because we are unsure of the timing of our move, and because we were pretty discouraged. Dan had made multiple inquiries on rental homes awhile back with no success. We have multiple barriers: Finances, Credit -- the foreclosure namely, needing room for 9 people (we are moving in with roommates), needing a space for schooling, desire to be somewhat close to most of our doctor/therapy appointments, and wanting 3 pets. (Our roommate has 2 cats she is not wanting to part with and of our 7 pets the kids are desperately wanting to keep one cat or the dog.)
These barriers seemed like mountains after so many rejections in our housing search. We can change the barriers somewhat - but our prayer was for God to open or close doors - to give us wisdom and guide us. We want to go where HE wants us to be. Funny how I decide to give control to God - His timing, His plans, not trying to do everything in my time or my way - and He provides a home for us AND a date.
"Jesus replied 'Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to this fig tree, but you can also say to this mountain "Go, throw yourself into the sea," and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."